Ani's Song         5th entry


    Time to continue where I left off as much as it pains me to write this part of my journey to finding me. It something I need to do though as its the only way to heal to get back to being whole again to being Anita, as I struggle with this I take a deep breath if you only knew how hard this is for me at this given moment. Here we go welcome to the horror  of this i am about to share 

   Upstairs i went to place my books in my room to be trapped in what was once  my safe space by he that shall not be named closing the door behind him as he looking at me as if i was a piece of meat and he was starving the hairs on the back of my neck stood up as fear filled every inch of me what was about to happen to her the 12 year old girl my God.

 Stop no please words screamed went unheard as she was throne on the bed fighting a fight her weak young self could not win over powered  tears falling mouth covered before she knew her pants were gone and he forced himself inside her while covering her mouth for the screams of pain nobody heard all she could think was please God make him stop where are you why is this happening to her. the pain was to much to bear but weak there were no more sounds coming form her when she continued to scream it seemed to last a life time. Finally he stopped or so she thought but boy was she wrong soooooo wrong.

   The sick mother fucker that shall not be named  flipped her weak numb lifeless body over and started to proceed to penetrate her anally omg what the hell he ripped her open she screamed so loud as if she was dying he covered her mouth and forced himself inside he all she could do was cry and ask God to make it stop please she begged to God please help me but her cries and her prayers went unheard. finally he stopped this time he was done he got up told her to get dressed and threatened  her do not ever tell for the price you will pay will be worse then the pain your in now.

   She could hardly stand for she was weak and the pain was immense she got up went to the bathroom to wash up she was bleeding from both her vagina and anus she got a pad out put it on got dressed and the asshole walked her back to school. She didn't tell a soul but she was not the same 12 year old girl  that left the school earlier. She was lost empty walking the hall to her class not even there just emptiness scared of everyone that come near her the teacher called upon her asked if she was okay and all she heard was the words he spoke do not tell or you will  feel far worse pain.so before she new the words come out I'm okay  just pain from Dr. apt. So she never told not one soul she kept it locked away till one day.


        Return soon to see what happens next

                                         By Anita Ramos

                 

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