Ani's Song * 3rd entry


Together hand in hand little Ani and I start our decent down the dark grey road with the fear of the unknown pounding in our hearts we walked a short distance till we come upon a road block out of nowhere a screen appeared and a movie began to play

A beautiful girl crying her age around 7 but this time she was not alone my eyes filled with tears as little Ani squeezed my hand tightly for we both new the horror that was about to play for the girl was us the story was ours we were being forced to watch

let me touch let me see Its okay dont be afraid its the way brothers and sisters that love eachother are supposed to be no stop that hurts her crys went unheard for they continued doctors orders this is how you get examed  playing doctor they said

I hugged little ani tight in my arms her head burried in my chest so she couldnt see I got you little one i am keeping you safe we had to face this to over come the first hint of damage that was done

the 7 year old me cried out in pain as her innocence was invaded till she disappeared inside herself  finally the game come to an end  Now dont you tell anyone this our secret if mom or dad find out you will see that the punishment will be severe far much more painful you see the screen went black and the roadblock disappeared 

i was so ashamed so disgusted i began to puke then little Ani tugged on my hand and said its okay we are still here we faced that past demon together we overcame it at that moment we felt a small shock as if we gained a small piece of us back 

we are stronger together and can face whatever need be we have to get started back to the path back to the journey of finding Me


Return again soon

to see what happens next

Moonlight Anita


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